Christmas ❤

It's 24th of December. 02.49am.
Let's countdown for the Christmas.
And let's rock it. ❤

FCUKMYLIFE

Insomnia? LOL.
I can't even get into sleep although I am damn freaking sleepy.
My mind is like can't stop functioning, Can't stop thinking of the shity thingy.
Let's guess what am I thinking now,
HMMM, is shy to say, I am thinking about my final exam. =.=''
My second semester final exam is around the corner.
will be on 6th of January.
Peoples are taking 5 subjects for the final exam,
and the stupid me will be taking 7 subjectssss. FML.
Imagine how stupid am I, how useless am I.
Yea, of cause now you can give a big laugh on me.

Till now, the second semester.
I will still thinking, still asking myself,
what the hack are you so stupid to take this damn course that you don't like, that you can't able to handle.
Why are you so obey to parents when making this decision. You are holy shittttt.
And again, you can laugh at me now.

Seriously, I really can't able to stand when peoples around me can get a good result,
even they don't study much.
It's really kills me.
GOD, PLEASE HELP.

Since the time table for final exam is out,
that is an idea always popping on my mind,
- withdraw after the final exam -
This idea was suffering me for about oneees week more.
I was keep thinking stay back here to continue or just pack my stuffs and go back.
And it made me can't able to shittt like normally. FCUK MY ASS HOLE.
But after I 'digesting' this problem hard, and begging by my lovely baby,
I had decided to stay back here,
I have decided to study hard, to try hard.
Even I can't get a satisfied result.
I swear to my baby I will still staying back here,
I wont't leave him alone and giving change to other girls.
Baby, thank you for your promises.

NOT IN MOOD

I AM NOT IN THE MOOD,
ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME?
DID I WRONG?
WHY MUST EVERY TIME WE FIGHT LIKE THIS.
I WISH YOU ARE MY FOREVER,
BUT IT SEEM SO IMPOSSIBLE.
WHY? IS IT CAUSE OF ME? ABOUT MY ATTITUDE?
WHY?CAN SOMEONE HELP ME.
AND I AM FUCKING UP MY LIFE.

Study mood

Orh shitt, 

this is too bad. 

I can't concentrate on my study.

New Blog

A new blog.

A brand new life and a brand new me must start from a brand new place.

Since I have open a new account, 

means that I am not gonna update my old blogs any more,

that is too many unhappy memories to forget.

I just want a new start. 

I just realize that how stupid am I last time.

I did a lots of stupid dump things for you, 

but at the end I get nothing.

I cry for you, I huts myself just for a stupid you.

How much you huts me, 

and I do believe you will got it back one day.

I wish you luck.

Time gone fast, 

everything had changed.

But I am happy to changing into this.

I have been studying in the death town for almost four months,

although that is just a very very small town,

but it gave me a lots of happiness.

I get to know a gang of good friends,

they all treated me like their sister, 

and I felt that I am just like a small sister for them, 

although they always 'bully' me.

And now, I am having my first semester final exam.

I wish I can pass all the subject,

although I knew that is a impossible thing.

But, wish me luck.

I am so thankful that God have giving me him,

he is the most precious present that God had giving me.

I am so glad to have him be with me, 

and I will never let him go.

Once he is mine, forever he will be mine.

Yaa, I mean it. and

ILOVEYOUMYSWEEYHEART  ♥