LOVE The One Who LOVE You

Someone asked me, how are you?

And I was wondering how I gonna answer?

I am good? Not at all.

I am not good at all? Is that real.

As always, I am locking myself in the room,

not to talk, not to eat, not to do anything.

What is the intention I am doing it?

To get attention? Or just to make him worry about me?

Sometimes I was thinking,

He is the one, and the only one I will care, 

but I might be not the one he will care about.

So, what I am persistent with?

I am tired.

Should I just say, 

I wanna give up.

I promised myself, 

I will love myself more.

I am not gonna hurt myself.

But what I am doing?

I am hurting myself each and everyday.

You can spend time for a very dumb stupid game,

why don't you spend sometime to know more about me,

to know what I am thinking actually.

As I always say, 

if there is a scar,

the permanent mark will be with you forever.

Sometime, I was thinking why I always can't have a long lasting truth love.

Am I always choose the wrong one to love.

Yea, to be admit. 

I do have a very bad attitude. 

I understand not much people can stand for my temper.

But what to do, this is the real me.

I can't control myself to stop acting this way.

Okay, I am here to say Sorry to everyone who close to me.

Thank you for apologize.

Do love the one who love you.

Female is an very terror animal.

Sometime she will do things out of your mind.